Life Of A Rebel

Hello Rebels, Welcome! Welcome!! Welcome!!! Thank you all for coming on this journey with me and sticking with me thus far, I'm everly grateful. . . . A lot of people look at me on a daily basis and go, "Girl, I wish to have your level of confidence" or "You're overly confident, that must be a good feeling. Not giving a care what people say or think about you, I wish I could be more like that." But what they don't know is that it wasn't always like that and sometimes it still isn't. Insecurities  have always been one constant in my life. Funny right? The badass queen of not giving a f**k had and still has insecurities? Well, go figure! Cause even the president of the world's largest economy has his own insecurities. President Trump is after all being trolled for being bald headed and going for a hair transplant. Being insecure which is synonymous with vulnerability isn't such a bad thing at all; it's something every living,...

Hello Rebels, Welcome to the second drop in the 'Wednesday Whispers' series. I nearly didn't make this post for personal reasons but I promised y'all consistency, so here it is... Growing up I wasn't the extroverted, loving and outgoing kid everyone assumes I was. I was the exact opposite of all those things, I was a mean spirited child. I kept to myself as much as possible, I never spoke to anyone who didn't speak to me, I was so much of an introvert I never ventured outdoors unnecessarily except on errands. Hence I never had childhood friends whom I played with or was close to, I was deemed unfriendly; funny enough I still am deemed unfriendly by certain people. Sum it all up to say, 'I didn't have friends and really didn't want any'. Coming from a very conflicted childhood and background; conflicted being the word not traumatic, I was a very angry child. I was always angry at everything and everyone and no one seemed bothered enough to...

Hello Rebels, Welcome to the first drop in the 'Wednesday Whispers' series. Let's go back to the very beginning, how it all started... At age 7 I had a dream, it was more of a nightmare and weirdly enough I haven't forgotten this particular dream till date. My maternal grandmother was ill and was being taken to a hospital. On arrival at the hospital, I was the attending doctor, a Doctor! Unfortunately, she died during the course of treatment and I had tried my darnedest to keep her alive. I woke up screaming, sweating and crying profusely; my parents rushed to my room and after narrating the dream, they dismissed it telling me it was just a mere nightmare. I couldn't go back to sleep and I surely couldn't get it out of my head. A couple of days later, my grandmother showed up on our doorsteps without notice and was really sick. Three days later she passed away; I was devastated and this would eventually become my first major loss in life. I still cry when...

Hello Rebels, So sorry I've been AWOL. I needed sometime to myself to get my thoughts and act together. But thankfully, we're back on track! My 22nd birthday was fabulous in its own right; I literally spent the day at the dentists', I got a birthday cake from someone I had known previously for just two weeks and it was a much appreciated gesture as it was the first time someone has ever gotten me a cake for my birthday. I initially planned to get a tattoo for my birthday and spend the day at home sleeping but things turned out the way they did, so... After a lot of thoughts and soul searching, I've decided to start a weekly series on my blog and it's gonna be called...*drum rolls please*... "Wed nesday Whispers". I'd be sharing true life stories with y'all; mine and others whom have motivated me on this journey. I will finally open up and tell my story head on with no regrets or fear of judgement. So if you've got a judgemental bone in your ...

Hello Rebels, Right now as I sit down to write, I'm filled with so much hurt, anger and frustration. Why do I feel this way? I never cared and I still don't. I thought I had everything figured out and under control but turns out I'm far from it. For the past couple of weeks, I've been feeling this way. Some days it gets better and other days, it worsens. Am I missing something? Everything seems to be going crazy or is it just me? Is something wrong with me? As these questions run through my head I want to cry but the tears are no where; they aren't forthcoming. I feel so stuck right now! I've always dealt with everything angrily. I've so mastered the art of turning emotions into anger that I have anger seeping out of every pores on my body. But I'm beginning to question my emotional technique; silence they say is golden but I can't help wondering if ANGER and SILENCE are kinsmen. They say mind the things you say when you're angry cause words on...

It's a few hours to my birth month and I can't help but think about how far I've come. Two decades and counting, wow! The first thought that comes to my head when I realize I'd be a year older in two days #April2nd# time is, "Damn girl! You sure are getting old." Yeah, I've gotten older but I've realized that not much has changed, I'm still a child at heart looking for true love and trying to find her place in the world. I may have chosen a path already but I sometimes can't help but wonder if it's the right one, the right path. I can't help second guessing myself and asking the ever present question, "Have I made the right choices and decisions?"  With all these running through my mind, I decided to pen down a letter to myself. 📝 . . . Dear 14year old Self,      You're amazing! Amazing doesn't even begin to describe you but it'd have to do for now. The decision you made about that issue was brav...

You all know I'm always going on and on about how I'm destined for greatness and how I'm going to do great things and change the world and make the world a better place? Well, I got another sign today! I woke up feeling energetic and unapologetically me. I brushed and washed my face as per routine then still in my nightdress, I wander into the hallway looking for sunlight; Vitamin D is very essential. 😉 I'm standing at the windows with my phone in hand and decided to take morning selfies to show the world my dose of flawlessness. Yeah, I'm cheesy like that! 😋 I start thinking to myself again how I'm destined for greatness and how I'm going to do great things and change the world, then suddenly I realized I had a appointment. 😂 Sum it all up to say I was very late for my appointment. But being a fine girl has its perks, I was instantly forgiven for coming late right after I apologized. Don't worry, I don't over ...